For today's Working On Things (and partly Do Something...), I'd like to do what I always do: tell the internet I'm going to do something I don't want to do, and because I've done that, I have to do the thing I really don't want to do.
Most people will think what I am terrified of doing is just plain silly. Here it is: I want to swim. For exercise.
issues" pretty early on.) But I also hated water in general. I'd swim with friends and family occasionally, but inside I was in agony. To this day, I don't like being in water--it feels claustrophobic to me--nor do I delight in getting splashed. Because of this, I am a terrible swimmer. I can basically doggy-paddle, but not much more beyond that.
In college, I thought I would start doing triathlons seeing as I was a decent runner and loved biking too. Knowing what a terrible swimmer I was, I decided to face my fears and take a beginning swimming course at BYU. It was four days a week. And I hated every second of it. I was by far the worst in the class. My teacher took pity on me, because I was honestly trying. Every time I tried to complete the assigned workout, I'd get a cramp in the middle of the water or just freak out, never able to quiet figure out how to breathe correctly. I was clearly panicking each day. For the final, we were supposed to swim a certain amount of laps using certain strokes. Right before, my instructor pulled me aside and said, "Monica, just swim however long you can and use whatever strokes you are able to do. I'll still give you an A." Bless him! So I stuck with freestyle and backstroke, and I had to pause at the end of each side of the pool. I think I did maybe four laps.... Admittedly, I was in fantastic shape otherwise, so this wasn't an out-of-shape problem. It was a me problem.
I have largely stayed away from any forms of swimming--exercise or recreation-wise--since then. So that's 10 years.....
Well, back to present-day: I'm on dr.'s orders to stay away from high intensity workouts. If you know me, that's about all I do for exercise: runs and intense strength training. They say I can walk, maybe cycle, and definitely swim. That's when I cried.
I am trying to get on my big-girl panties here and do what's best for my body. Swimming is fantastic exercise! It's something I can do the rest of my life! Running was already wearing down my body, so who knows how much longer I could have kept that up anyway! That's what I keep telling myself.
So I went on Amazon, and I bought myself a swimsuit. And I tried to buy a swimsuit that would make me most-likely actually swim for exercise. This entailed as little shaving as possible and as much coverage as I could pull off without leading to excessive over-heating. It's this one, and I don't even care how hideous it is (however, all the 70+ year old reviewers had a lot of positive things to say about it!):
But..... I still haven't swam since my swimsuit arrived a month ago. I just can't bring myself to do it! My thought processes: I'd have to change in the locker room bathroom (you will not see me outside of a stall) with all of its grossness; I'd have to shower before going in; then I'd have to jump in a cold pool (ugh!); then I'd actually have to attempt to swim and breathe in said pool WITH PEOPLE ALL AROUND ME WHO KNOW WHAT THEY ARE DOING; then I'd have to rinse off, peel off the suit, and then shower again at home. It's too overwhelming for me! Isn't that silly?
So, here's where you come in to play. I hereby promise my three internet friends that I will swim this week. I can only promise one time, and it might only include backstrokes for ten minutes. But that's my commitment to you. Can you hold me to it?
Also, any tips on learning how to swim without panicking and drowning as a full-fledged adult?